I don’t know how well I’m going to sleep tonight. I fly to Canada tomorrow evening. I’m really tired but anxiety keeps dragging me out of bed and making me do things.
I’m going to be fine. Everything will be fine.
I just hate how a mental illness can take a normal stressor such as flying and make it such a huge deal. And I don’t even have a fear of flying! I don’t mind the idea and I’ve done it before. I can’t even imagine what I would be like now if I were terrifed of planes!
I do this all the time, so I would say yes.
is it acceptable to lay on my floor until i feel better about myself
As my flight time comes closer and closer I feel myself getting more and more tense.
I don’t know if its anxiety or excitement but either way it provokes an adrenal response.
depression is when you don’t really care about anything
anxiety is when you care too much about everything
and having both is just like what
- Daily reminder: you need calories simply to continue to function and exist.
- Losing weight: you need to eat.
- Maintaining weight: you need to eat.
- Didn't work out: you need to eat.
- Ate a lot yesterday: you need to eat.
- Happy: you need to eat.
- Sad: you need to eat.
- Everyone: needs to eat, every day.
To the girl who waited
People fall out of the world sometimes
But they always leave traces.
Little things we can’t quite account for -
Faces in photographs, luggage, half-eaten meals,
Nothing is ever forgotten.
Note to self: don’t be late in taking anxiety meds. You know you hate the shakes.
"We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving… We pride ourselves on getting as little sleep as possible and thrive on self-deprivation. We drink coffee, a lot of it. We are on birth control, Prozac, and multivitamins… We are relentless, judgmental with ourselves, and forgiving to others. We never want to be as passive-aggressive as our mothers, never want to marry men as uninspired as our fathers… We are the daughters of the feminists who said, “You can be anything,” and we heard, “You have to be everything."
Courtney Martin (via tilthe)
No wonder my caffeine toleration has been low lately. It’s my new fucking pills reacting to the caffeine. Wow. Good to know.